limits. this word came to my mind and made me feel that, having limits helps you make your decision wisely. sometimes it's good, sometimes it isn't.
first week of school sucked. and i guess it will just suck forever. the same old thing is shooting at me once in awhile. i've been advised to ignore, but ignoring isn't forever. to tell myself to just live with it, it's hard.
and slowly, one by one, they're disappearing. some without telling the others too and just left. can't blame them but to just accept it. some of us, including myself, think that i can't do a job properly, be it a leader, or something else. that's why i tend to be a follower and follow the people whom i respect. afterall, friendship isn't just beyond a computer screen with words and pictures, it's more of an extension over the atmosphere of outside world too.
i'm just starting to think that, i'm going back my own ways. i just think that i'm pathetic and useless, again. not that i can't do anything, i just can't help anyone that i wanted to help. more than adding fuel to fire instead.