JORDAN.

yep. just rephrasing my blog title. wonder who that 'you' could be. :o)

she sent me a letter all the way from Mauritius and telling me about her life there and her school. was feeling down till I received the letter o.O weird huh =x thanks for the letter! (:

well, this title could refer to anyone. to do something good, to perform something bad, to excel or to deteoriate. to create disasters or miracles. all it takes is just you.

school days are passing just it should be and this makes my examinations real close. how to handle it? I don't know too. sigh ):

some friends are worth cherished, especially the old friends you used to know, be it good or bad. even if it's bad, he/she is there to make you stronger and able to endure more as your path continues. where are my true friends in school? or do I even have any? more or less I can feel that I'm slowly pushed to one corner of my classroom feeling left out, studying alone and no one to consult if I have doubts. O think I'm just thinking too much. bah so-called 'exam stress' -.-

i told myself if i should just, stay quiet and anonymous and not let anyone notice. only have my own two feet to stand on and support by myself. sheesh

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exams are so near. so dam near. and i barely started.

i can feel my butt on the chair. rotting there for several hours facing the screen.

i can't feel my legs on the track or my hands on the gym bars, to train myself to make myself fitter.

to try, and try and try. i just can't sense that feeling. halfway and i'll stop. no permanent interest in something for long. gah dammit.

to sustain an interest seems easy, to restrain it from affecting you is hard. gah

oh yeah, happy 18th birthday to cheng =) although i wasted some cash on the mega, guess it's worth it =)

shall not talk much. nite



that phrase. been recurring in my mind lots of times, not sure why and how.

Nowadays it seems that, things we do can't be forever, except daily things. I don't think we would be playing the same game for 25 years consecutively, using the same toothbrush for 5 years and other examples. Is there really a need to change? I mean, change for all?

Hmm someone managed to find my blog url from someone's blog links. Think find le big fug ah =X Tsktsktsk ;x

Oh yeah I suppose that I'll be back for blogging, probably cuz some of my friends are into, so yeah maybe I'll just waste some time here, if possible.

When someone controls your life, do you like it? I think I'm in this situation where someone is like controlling my life and observing my own actions. Staying up late in the night, this and that. I'm me, myself and I. I can do things on my own and gotta think on my feet for some situations.

Now I wanna know what people think of me. Am I a person that can be easily bullied? Am I a person that could be a scapegoat and takes all the blame and you taking the credits? Or am I just useless?

I just can't seem to continue anymore. Bleh

swear like a sailor