JORDAN.

happy halloween! :D

chinese paper was well yesterday, I think. didn't really screw and managed to do what I could. just of the stupid CPE, some attitude fella. just 'cuz of two guys, whole exam hall got detained for 45 minutes after the paper.

I don't know why. I was extremely moody last night. It was Lod's birthday, and I mega'ed him on Bootes side. he told me about how his guild, DuckieFC celebrated his birthday a day before, buying him a cake and celebrated with him. I somehow cried last night, well almost, just a tear or two. that makes me remember how we had fun the past times. geez, just the thought of them, just made me very moody. sheesh.

oh, and the song at cheng's blog, sibei addictive. dam you cheng :x

if only things could happen that easily, sigh.

anyway, I heard that the course that I'm interested needs a cut-off point of 11 to enter. after hearing that, my hopes just got dashed. guess I should think of another course then. T.T



chinese's today. or barely just two hours time.

I'm getting nervous, not knowing what to do. sheesh. just hope I can do well.
last night before I slept, I keep thinking about something. has my time this whole year been well spent? it's like going back to the same times. the fun in game is much more better than the fun outside. however as for now, I don't know which is better.

why do I keep thinking about all this? sheesh. someone wake me up from all these thoughts.

hope I can do well for my paper and everything doesn't really screw up.

anyway, all the best to those taking the O' level papers too! :D



don't know why that I suddenly have this feeling of that I hate school. gah. primary school was like better. although we're like quite young to interact with other, I think I liked primary school more. at least the attention I get from my peeps.

first paper is just barely 4 days time. I'm getting nervous, but I just can't seem to do anything. it's so hard. geez. I have a strong feeling that I'd flunk and have to retake again next year. man.

I remembered two years ago, where someone intro'ed me a girl, practically my sister's senior. I didn't really bother about her sms'es and just told her that I was busy and not interested about knowing each other more. sheesh. a chance flew away just like that.

really hope I can do something to help myself, but what can I do?

I've got plans on quitting MS and TO. seems that its getting a little boring for me. gah. just don't know what to do.

last night, my mum showed me some courses on what TP offers. there's a course that seems quite suitable to me I think. Diploma for Game and Entertainment Technology. more on handling about games etcetc, and maybe learn how to make games too. hope it's possible for me ._.

wonder why I came back to blogging. probably is that I've seen so many friends blogging and venting their anger and frustrations. probably I joined in too.

this is what dreams are made of



practicals was quite fine I think, hope I can do well.

it's been a very long time since I blogged. waned to blog about stuffs that I've wanted to say, but I think there isn't a need for them anymore. what more can I ask for man, sigh.

first written paper is in less than two weeks. oh great. then after that subsequent papers.

I haven't really decided on what course I intend to take when I get into a poly (if I'm able). how undecisive I am.

there are things that make me change my mind always. when I'm at a point of doing something, there'll always be something that will suddenly change my decision. bah just hate it man.

I'm like seeing more and more of my friends being attached with girls. I guess I'm not prepared for one either, so I think I should just give up the idea of trying to woo one ._. look at me man, I'm so shy, even when talking to my usual friends and they're even guys. face to face, I can't even speak a word or just continue a conversation. I would just put my face down or look at other directions. for me, it's too hard to make an eye contact with my partner, especially if it's a girl. it's the fright man. gah.

though before that there's people who called me cute, i don't really think that they meant it. they probably jope ust wanted me to feel more confident and happy. ohwell, I guess I shouldn't be thinking so much.

hope everything goes well for you and me.



woohoo. practicals today. wish me luck and hope I can do well ._.

cya guys.

swear like a sailor