JORDAN.

happy new year everyone! may 2007 be a year of good things :D

went out quite early today to sing at partyworld. did sing. really went off tune >_> sometimes couldn't reach that high or low.

hmm, to think about the 2006 i've past, there's always good things and bad things, but then its the bad things that seems to keep ringing in my mind. hope they won't ring so much =\ after that we had bbq steamboat at marina. heng we went early or else it became very packed after that x.x

been out these few days and really spent alot of money. and ate alot as well x.x guess I'm gonna be fat and gain some weight x.x

everything shall be fine I hope.

once again, happy new year and I wish you guys a wonderful year! :D



I guess keeping my mouth shut is always a better option for things to be better.



merry christmas to all! although it's abit late ._.

didn't really go out for christmas, didn't have a good experience last year and yeah didn't go out. rather stay at home. at least my mom cooked something that's nice =x

it seems to get closer and closer for the release of results x.x
hope that I can do well =\ don't really expect good results, but hope it's enough for the course I desire to go to.

this weekend is quite hectic I guess. =\ lots of stuffs to do. well at least it should be fun I think. beach cleaning etcetc. hmm.

oh, I burnt my tongue too T.T was having steamboat at bugis then accidentally drank hot soup x.x could felt the hot sensation down my throat. oh man tongue's so pain x.x



been some days since i've posted. ._.

hmm this week. nothing really happened much, so i'll try to recall what i've done.

me amos and some friend went to try for the job interview at marché. the person who interviewed me was quite friendly. he said he'll call me within this week or next week, so I hope it'll be something good. after we finished the marché one, we saw breeks at the harborfront centre recruiting also, so we gave it a shot as well. however the person who interviewed us was like -.- she asked a question which made me very shocked ._. she asked 'are you obedient to your parents?' it has like no link to the job lor >_>

then i went to fold stars for someone's birthday which was coming soon too. didn't know folding stars was so hard for me x.x but it's quite fun, although my stars look like crap. :x

hmm watched night at the museum today at the cathay. nice movie I could say, and funny at some parts too. during the movie there's some scenes where the whole theatre was laughing. guess for the outing tmr, i shall watch again o.o

i do hope i can get the marché job >_> although it starts at feb ._. hope the call I get from them would be good.



oh well, didn't receive any calls from ajisen at all ._. so I'd guess I won't have a job there. even though I heard from the manager that most probably my friends and I would get the job, seems like it's all not true. bah.

ohwell, at least my sis is helping me :x she's trying to help me find a job at mac's I think. the pay might be low, but just have to live with it bah. ._. mccafe sounds fun too :D
I guess I should not be to excited over stuffs that I'm not certain at ._.

still haven't got the gift for the GS exchange >_> not sure whether if I'm going or not too. just can't really decide. sheesh x.x

hum de dum



hmm, yesterday went bugis to apply for a job at ajisen. hope the reply would be a good one >_> if I managed to get a job, oh man, means no time for my hermit T_T working full time if there's any ._.

after that, went to meet cheng, dj, shannon and his, amanda, gi and wy at starbucks since they were at bugis as well. we talked alot as usual. and laughed. then they were like, rewinding on what happened before I came. oh man so funny.

at about 6pm. I headed to my chalet.
waited for jol at tanah merah station. as usual she's always late and must always wait for her one. nvm, that's a gentleman to be! :x
reached the chalet about 6.30 - 7. it's quite near to my primary school one, just a few rooms away. oh well. there were alot of people when we came. probably around the same people like the chalet in june. well i did help in the cooking ._. as always. don't really wish to just waste my money, though I didn't eat that much =.= also drank abit of absolute vodka with some sprite. drank abit and my stomach went weird >_> we talked alot of stuffs, maple stuffs as usual. slept at around 2am until 5am. then when I woke up, I saw some of them playing fatal frame >_> omg man. some of them even screamed when the ghosts came out! heh. managed to learn some games as well, next time try on some friends. :x hmm this chalet wasn't as screwed as I thought, but it went quite well ._.

whatever it is



yep. going for another chalet later. ._.
but first going out with a friend to try for some job. hope it goes well -_-

ohana chalet. wonder if it'll be fun, or be as screwed up as my primary school one. seriously don't know.

oh btw, the singer for cherry filter is quite hawt too! :x



i dont think this song is the same as the audition one, but it's the same author. :x

just suddenly have an obession with it, since it's one of my fav songs in audition >_>

hope you all like it :o

everything seems like it's over with just a blink of an eye



went gym today again. now with kl and fik. spent there about two hours as usual and it's like that. however everytime when we go gyming, there's bound to be a cooking show on channel 5 each time to go, so I'd be like sticking myself to the tv and watch the show. man the food they cook is superb. just the look of it can drool >_>

hmm. do I expect well for my O's? it's been about two weeks since it's over, and was wondering if I can make it to the poly. I just have this feeling that I won't do well and probably have to attend school again? thinking about my secondary school again makes me feel that it's a waste of time staying in that school. the thought kept ringing in my mind. ahh dammit. lower secondary school life was much more fun and lively. the unity between each other is so obvious. these two years in upper secondary school is more of a hell or a lone land for me. still have to accept the fact of being called a 'sissy' and a 'gay' in school, I wonder when I can resist till. there might be a few who cared about me, but the majority still rather stayed away from me. when they want something, they come to me. when I need something, they run away or act as if they're not listening at all. wtf are all those? probably to them I'm just as vulnerable and weak like a punching bag, since I don't really like using abuse and preferred using verbally.

probably I'm not worth much in my friends' eye. I guess I should just sit one corner, and make me feel less known, and shall be just myself. the lonely jordan.

can you make me feel okay?



hmm nothing really happen, just the same usual stuffs that I usually do. >_> eat sleep play comp :x

on friday night, I went to eat dinner at the red house in east coast. oh boy the food's good there. we ate crabs and lots of stuff. then as we were eating, I saw this group of Japanese people sitting on the other side of the restuarant drunk. then I saw two of them kissing each other! gross x.x

yesterday I went out with some of the bootes players in ohana ._. oh well at least I find them more sociable. we met at dhoby ghaut, but then me and jol was late, so we headed to the bowling centre at kovan. reached there, and played three games. it's been some times since I played, but I still think I did quite okay. I got um, 92 , 100 and 114 ._. at least able to maintain an average of 100. woohoo :x after the bowling games, we headed to heartland mall for dinner, and then as we walked around. we stopped at mini-toons and got interested at the voodoo minis section. I bought a voodoo that looks something like my hermit :x so cool. but of course, it's a guy lah. like those ninja with shuriken.

sigh. things can happen fast on certain people, and things can happen slow. but are we able to adapt those changes? it could be probably like, we tend to prefer to old stuffs and unable to adapt to the stuffs. one of them could be probably the ohana forum. so messed up and demoralising. man that's so ghey. one day I'm just tempted to just click that button and make sure everything's gone. hate those who especially like to suck up just to get into someone's good books.

all it takes is just time



went gym yesterday again. spent about 2 hours doing the same routine as I did last week, but I think I like nv work out much. don't feel any pain one ._. probably I underworked or some sort. then fik keep showing off his muscles. wa nb, so jealous :( oh well. gotta work for it! *takes his own time*

oh yeah. some of my friends called me yesterday and told me how sucky and stringent their workplace was. -_- especially the one at shangri-la. ever heard of that there's a high-classed way of clearing the plates on the tables? well you have that at shangri-la. oh man that's so zzz.

oh yeah. x'mas coming soon! and I'm still doing the same old thing, just sitting around facing the big screen staring at the ceiliing. mom's birthday coming soon, so I guess I needa get something for her.

anyway, good luck to those having their examinations and don't slack around too much! :x

I just want to hold my own, more than you could ever know, make my wish come true, all I want for Christmas is you



just heard from my friend that the job in paragon has no vacancies left. after hearing that I just simply feel dam low zz

From a 80% confirm to no vacancy ._. sigh. guess shouldn't be hoping too much.

now it's back to square one. with nothing.

oh my. how pathetic can I be.



topic says everything.

yesterday, me and some of my primary school friends went to visit our primary school's teacher house. we meet about 4.30 and reached our teacher's hse at about 6 ._. there was a videoezy shop located near her house and we decided to watch a video at her house. we rented scary movie 4. however we needed to ask our teacher down cuz it's M18 -_- the movie so lame, but quite nice to watch ba.

we left our teacher's hse at 7.30. we headed to heartland mall where we had our dinner at yoshinoya. as we ate we talked about kw's job at shangri-la and he was asking if anyone interested to join. most of us were quite interested and wanted to go for the interview. but in the end, after what happened last night, I guess I didn't have the mood to go for it anyway.

probably there's just this few peeps that really cared, not always but at least to that extent, but I just took them for granted, and pretended none of those really happened. hope it'll be what it's supposed to be.

I guess I'm just too shy, too lazy and too anti-social for anything.

there's always something in your way



I'll start with the audition outing 1st.
wasn't feeling well when I left my house for the event. this event is a private event organised by my guild and with some help of others as well. the event was quite a success I guess, but there were losses.

as for the games, what I presumed was right, first round out riaos! :x
then I saw the others play. Wah so zai and so pro. so envy of them :( hope one day can play like them. oh well. at least I won in the lucky draw an auditionsea cap. not bad. quite nice imo.
and my frd howdy, at first said he not feeling well and don't intend to go. in the end he went for it and got first for the freedom section -.- 50k cash and 3hr pcbunk vouchers. gah @.@

now for gs outing. rushed quickly to vivo after the end of the lucky draw. saw alot of new faces that I've never seen before. there was like about 20 people I think. lemme try recall the names. there's cheng, track, ben, derrick, ming, dj, weiyang, darren, aik, jac, fei, yh, felix, spar, gi, sherri, elvina, kenneth, shannon, xxuishx( don't know his real name) and one more which I forgot.
we met at the playcourt of vivo, where we talked alot. track told me the movie was at 6.10pm. since we didn't have any plans, the only thing we could do was to talk cock the whole afternoon ._. well, at least the cock we talked abt isn't that bad. altho I got some tit pinching :x
sherri was called a doraemon. o.o she has alot of stuffs in her bag lor. scissors, bracelet etcetc, and especially the skirt for track to wear LOL. :x we talked and talked till about 5.30 where we headed to gv to enter the theatre and bought our snacks. we were watching open season. show's about one and a half hr. the story isn't that good I think, but there was the comedy there. after the movie we went back to the 3rd floor of vivo to chill out. some had their dinner while some just sat there. cheng wanna diet, so I diet with him lo o.o in the end he ate some fruits. -_- oh man. see track they all with carl's jr. nb so tempting. in the end went to buy smth to drink, managed to reduce some of the gastric pain >.< oh well. must be fit like cheng ma :x no pain no gain! btw hor, I wasn't being emo. no one among us can be as emo as cheng lor. hmm maybe that derrick can, but cheng is one emo person :x
we talked until about 10pm like that, and went home together since gi and sherri gotta leave as well. took the train at harborfront and all headed home and went seperate ways when we reached outram park.

I said this before, I prefer these online friends than my school and classmates. my classmates so hard to get along. bth. at least I managed to meet more friends o.o that's a good thing I guess, at least I had fun yesterday. thanks guys!

oh btw, about my baleno job application at vivo, I think the vacancy got taken riaos. :( oh well, I might have another one though, working with a friend at a restuarant at paragon. so hope I'm able to get that job. :(

and to those who think you're so good. just screw off.

all ends are just new beginnings

swear like a sailor