JORDAN.

went gym today again. now with kl and fik. spent there about two hours as usual and it's like that. however everytime when we go gyming, there's bound to be a cooking show on channel 5 each time to go, so I'd be like sticking myself to the tv and watch the show. man the food they cook is superb. just the look of it can drool >_>

hmm. do I expect well for my O's? it's been about two weeks since it's over, and was wondering if I can make it to the poly. I just have this feeling that I won't do well and probably have to attend school again? thinking about my secondary school again makes me feel that it's a waste of time staying in that school. the thought kept ringing in my mind. ahh dammit. lower secondary school life was much more fun and lively. the unity between each other is so obvious. these two years in upper secondary school is more of a hell or a lone land for me. still have to accept the fact of being called a 'sissy' and a 'gay' in school, I wonder when I can resist till. there might be a few who cared about me, but the majority still rather stayed away from me. when they want something, they come to me. when I need something, they run away or act as if they're not listening at all. wtf are all those? probably to them I'm just as vulnerable and weak like a punching bag, since I don't really like using abuse and preferred using verbally.

probably I'm not worth much in my friends' eye. I guess I should just sit one corner, and make me feel less known, and shall be just myself. the lonely jordan.

can you make me feel okay?

swear like a sailor