JORDAN.

now the lag is even more ghey. -_- probably they're still fixing the damaged cabled underground. wonder how long they'll take. x.x

with this lag spikes is making me think of weird stuffs. probably won't think of those things anymore, just have nothing to do in like almost every morning. more of wasting my holidays.

I think I have some morning sickness or something -_- last night my nose bled when I woke up and this morning I got a bad headache after I woke up. probably due to the sudden temperatures of the freezer and the hot oil surrounding -_- one is like -20+ and the other is like 100+. just have to get used to it then.

so many things happened between my friends and myself. relationships here and there, and I'm like one loner with no one -_- I remember there was a period when some of my friends broke up with their partners. my heart was like sinking like it's not there. with a relationship of about 2 - 3 years and then it's over? some could be emotional, some might just leave it as it is. I'm more on the emotional side I guess. losing that kind of feeling, especially for a long period, is like losing part of your life. it could be true that nothing is forever, but at least we could try to reach as far as possible. how hard can it be? giving in to each other and to understand each other's problems. that could be hard. even if I were to get a girl that's very patient with me, sooner or later she'll just leave and find another better guy than me. my shy personality towards strangers and my dumbfoundedness towards girls too. to me, its hard to express the love to the girl. I might like her, she might/might not like me. probably when I get one, it'll only be temporary. those long-lasting relationships seems quite impossible for me. boy oh boy.

probably I've to pretend nothing's wrong

swear like a sailor