JORDAN.

ack. why do I have the sense of jealousy rushing through me right now?

both jealousy and worrying too much. what a combo it is to have it right now. -_-
maybe I can't be that outfront to a girl, and speak up of what's inside me. haha. although I think I might be interested in someone, but I guess it's gonna be hard to be together. besides I don't see any romantic side in myself, not am I able to say those words and spend lots of time with her. *boxes myself*

I remember during pri school, I was quite interested at someone! haha. cuz I like her attitude and the way she interacts with people. but the thing is that I never did say out or something like that. haha. but as the years go by, happened to see her friendster and what I saw of her now is completely 180 degrees of her previous self. sigh. things can sure happen in such a short time.

four years in a boys' school made me think differently I think. more towards the lonely side :x after what happened during my last two years there. being at least I should be happy that I managed to pull through. maybe I should learn to start to think positive of myself and make sure everything can be smoothly done.

now here I am, in a poly life. got this feeling that I'll just go through alone. well not maybe alone, just some come and go and that's it.

7th month started today! that seems so spooky. now I guess I have to be extra careful when I go out, especially when coming home from work during late nights -.-

another deathday tomorrow for me I think. last week of school's arriving! feeling both happy and scared.

oh anyway, congrats to marcus and jinwei for finding their partners! c:

just let me talk to a wall

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