JORDAN.

time to start studying for FTT! provided if I'm motivated to give a try on driving.

it seems cool to be on the driver's seat, enjoying the breeze while on the drive. nothing can really bother you, other than those irresponsible commuters/pedestrians who would just suddenly appear out of nowhere, and those vehicles that would appear from nowhere too -.-

probably it would be a place to relax. I remember seeing a show on tv that a car would be a good play to scream - no one would be able to hear you, no matter how loud you scream.

jealousy lives in me. ahhhhhhhh

but you never really had a doubt



a person donates $365 for just once in a year and another person donates $1 everyday for 365 days. whose donation would be more significant?


the game of love



thanks to all friends and family members that have wished my a happy birthday. can't really remember the exactly who wished me, but thank you everyone. :)

thanks for the presents and wonderful 'celebrations', even if it's just a minor one, it's always the thought that counts.

somehow, we can't really take things for granted, and maybe we'd have to see more of others before we make a decision.

I guess I need to learn to decide when I should take a step ahead to think what I've done wrong, or take a step behind to see what would happen for the thing that I'll be doing. oh well.

my new workspace is pretty good. at least it's like ten times faster then our previous one.

the person who shifted to sit next beside had his judging. seems like it didn't go very well. somehow I couldn't really see the stress level and the sense of urgency. even the cow and I were feeling more stressed and nervous for him when it's due for submission, and yet he's still behaving as free as a bird. -_-

time to think of what to buy for the cow.

so far away





time to bid farewell to my lovely computers that lasted us for the past 13-14 weeks. hopefully the speed is faster so that it'll be more motivational. as for the progress of the project, isn't really good I guess. I hope the cow and I can get through. just a few weeks more!

a few things happened in school recently, but it didn't really affect me much I guess. maybe the only thing I could say is that, being in MP/SIP allows us to show our true colours. be it the happy,cheerful mask they are wearing, or their backstabbing mask they'd been wearing, it'll eventually be removed during this period.

people are fortunate to have the company they want, the moments they can have and the joy/comfort that they want. I guess that we shouldn't really ask for much and should often take a step back or ahead, to realise what could have happened and what wouldn't have happened if we chose that particular path.

life is full of regrets, ain't it?

reaching for a love that seemed so far



Would you rather be good at 1 thing and be bad at another, or be half good at both things?

Sometimes things can't really be taken for granted.


in our secret place



I wonder if I could blame anyone else for the steps that I took to be what I am now.

Almost broke out last night... Didn't really know what to do at that point of time.

To think I've been tolerating about this for 5 years? It'll be more. Sometimes you just don't get what you always wanted.

I always appreciate the cow sharing her stories with me. Well most of them they are funny ones and keep me happy. Afterall, she's still the center of attraction in most of the situations.

Life has it's up and downs, and mine seems to have too little ups and too many downs! :/

This silent suffer will just carry on and on and on till nobody knows.

Maybe I should've been more open during sch in stpats. Probably I was too affected with the negative things that happened in school that I totally never thought on how I can overcome it. Maybe I took the wrong steps to 'let nature take its course' during PSLE. If I studied for PSLE, I wouldn't be what I am now. Could be better, could be worst. HAHAHAHAHA Being lonely most of the time in stpats, and even in poly, I'm still quite a lonesome at times.

Things can really change at the last minute. There's so many things that I'd always wanted to do, but there's always something that seems to be stopping me to do all those.

ohwell.

I guess I should have tryied taking guitar lessons that stpats was providing, but I had to always think about the problems that my mum always have. The stress for her seems to be always piling up. There's always alot of things that I wanted to do, but I had to always think a step ahead and slowly forget the idea instead. How depressing can it get?



Friday's performance wasn't really that bad, though I felt that I screwed up quite alot. ._.

Suddenly I lost all my interest in choir already, but I need to tell myself that I have to hang on till it's all over, at least till I graduate. Even though the after-effects won't affect me anymore, but at least I want to make myself feel contented/proud as it'll be a huge step for choir to proceed. I feel so lost when the seniors aren't around. I know that I'm not good, somehow managed to climb my way up and be able to be where I am. I don't have music quality afterall. Cannot really imagine when matt and don and even aaron goes for SIP. It'll probably leave me alone struggling. I'm not the best around and I need to stop thinking that I am. :(

I felt better when justin talked to me recently. Thank you bro :)

where the world never turns her back on you



I'm like some slave, and I have to live with it.

please don't let me go



a boring weekend with nothing much to do. ~.~

time for another stoning/trying-to-do-work week.

obvious



I'm beginning to think that I'm quite fortunate to have a supervisor that doesn't really know much of the project. Well, at least her expectations won't be as high as those who has knowledge about it. I just hope that I'd be able to complete my MP/SIP by the deadline so that I won't have to come back to school during the vacation. I'm like missing out in so many things!

I feel like taking a break from alot of things. It seems like I'm so packed with lots of stuffs and I just don't have much time to do everything slowly.

Probably especially for choir. Afterall, I won't get affected by the effects of what we have done for this year since I'm graduating soon. It still puzzles me on what I've been doing it is worth the time. Maybe it's that I just don't like people who shirk responsibilities after they're free from their roles.

Better not emo too much. Need to think on the happy side more I guess.

the rooms are getting smaller



I think I'm a very anti-social person.
Whenever someone that I know walk past me and doesn't notice me, I'll just pretend that I do not know him/her and continue walking. This makes me feel so bad.

feeling emotional lately =(

all of the time i'm looking for something new



there's only one thing that I can wish for now, and that is to end MP. :(

PR1 isn't really that great I think. Maybe I'd have to change my impression of my supervisor. She seems to be a nice supervisor somehow, or maybe not ._.

Time to stay in school till 10pm for the next 3 weeks. Dam school >_>

where the skies are blue

swear like a sailor