JORDAN.

I wonder if I could blame anyone else for the steps that I took to be what I am now.

Almost broke out last night... Didn't really know what to do at that point of time.

To think I've been tolerating about this for 5 years? It'll be more. Sometimes you just don't get what you always wanted.

I always appreciate the cow sharing her stories with me. Well most of them they are funny ones and keep me happy. Afterall, she's still the center of attraction in most of the situations.

Life has it's up and downs, and mine seems to have too little ups and too many downs! :/

This silent suffer will just carry on and on and on till nobody knows.

Maybe I should've been more open during sch in stpats. Probably I was too affected with the negative things that happened in school that I totally never thought on how I can overcome it. Maybe I took the wrong steps to 'let nature take its course' during PSLE. If I studied for PSLE, I wouldn't be what I am now. Could be better, could be worst. HAHAHAHAHA Being lonely most of the time in stpats, and even in poly, I'm still quite a lonesome at times.

Things can really change at the last minute. There's so many things that I'd always wanted to do, but there's always something that seems to be stopping me to do all those.

ohwell.

I guess I should have tryied taking guitar lessons that stpats was providing, but I had to always think about the problems that my mum always have. The stress for her seems to be always piling up. There's always alot of things that I wanted to do, but I had to always think a step ahead and slowly forget the idea instead. How depressing can it get?

swear like a sailor