JORDAN.

i think i'm doing things that i shouldn't be doing. hmm.

probably i need to think on which things i should do to not make myself a nuisance, and so that people won't get annoyed over me. heh =\

fun with the funk



what a weekend. think it's a first time for me to celebrate 3 birthdays in a weekend.

celebrated our careperson's birthday on friday. i think this is like our first time we ever did such things for her. well, the gatherings are a rare sight ever since we started sch together in 2007. there were a few gatherings, but somehow i gave them a miss since i wasn't free on those days. heh.

people have to make sacrifices at times and i seem to be the one who always had to make all the sacrifices.



featuring the wonderful lady who tries to act young when she actually can't and the 10 survivors on the island with another 2-3 still roaming around in the island. HAHAHAHA.

and there was jas' chalet too. most of my time there was spent on waiting :x since we're there quite early. ate quite a bit before leaving there for des' chalet which was nearby as well. no pictures on jas' side though. :x

the crowd is different from both sides. ahah. but the excitement and joy still remains the same. both are celebrating their 21st birthdays and they have their friends and family to celebrate with. i wonder whether if i'd such privileges when i turn 21 or even 20. >_>



it's been a long time since i've added pictures into this piece of wordy thing. since the blog format in my lappy is quite screwed, i don't think i'll be able to do such things when my mp/sip ends next friday. woohoo!

i should be anticipating for next friday to come since it's the end of mp/sip. but i also don't really want those days to go away. to compare the semesters that i've gone through, this semester would probably be the best one i'd say. no projects (ok except for a major one -.-), no exams and you get to see things that you never had a chance to see for the past 2 years. be it good things or bad things, you can still see and experience it. with ups and downs, lefts and rights, fronts and backs, and whatsoever, there's bound to be someone to share your problems and joy with one another, hopefully.

probably i should think of holding a bbq for my 20th birthday, hopefully i dont have to enlist before that, and thats if i still have friends left. HAHAHAHA.

take it back to a place where it all begins



my childish moment of the year.

hi-5 songs! LOL



i remember i watched every episode from primary 3 till like sec 1 -2, when i was staying at my grandparents' place. this tradition somehow passed to all of the kids that my grandmother babysitted.

ah, little wonders can sure amuse me. haha. read that the original cast 10 years ago had all left, guess the quality and the feel isn't there anymore. oh well. the kids won't be so bothered about this anyway.



2 chalets at the same day, same time, the they're quite near to each other. and both of them are for their 21st birthday. which should i go?

one love is all we need



somehow i managed to find those pokemon soundtrack sounds that i once heard back then in 2000. pretty amazing that they still interest me after not hearing so so many years. ohwell.

this shows that i still have my childhood days. i remember about playing pokemon volleyball -.- lol



have fun with the funk



it's never good to be the one forking out the money first and then chase people for debts.

it's always good to get all the money first before buying so that you get something cheaper and pocket the remaining.

true?

to be either a good guy or a bad guy can be so difficult.

heard from my friends that the ns checkup will take the whole day if i don't go early. some suggested me to go at 7am -_- the dates clashes with the f1 days and the japan trip. there's always last minute things that could spoil my holidays. imagine if i'd to stay back to continue my MP, it'd seem like i have no holidays at all ugh. however i won't know whether if i need to stay back or not. so far there's no news about it, hopefully there won't be any.

something seems to be wrong lately.

let's rock and roll and just let go



one look at the ftt book and it seems very confusing. pretty amazing to those who could pass at the first attempt. i think i have to retake 2 - 3 times before i can actually pass it. the first few pages are so difficult already. imagine the actual test. @_@

suddenly i lost the motivation to continue the project. heard that the cmpb checkup process will take the whole day. imagine if i have to wait for like 5-6 hours before it's actually my turn.

to solve the mystery, fight the battle, save the girl



a letter from mindef came to ask me to book a medical checkup date. that's like so fast! omg. i'm still at 3.1 and i haven't even graduated yet. -.- i hope i can get deferment and go for the checkup at a later time. >.> that dampens my mood quite badly =(

worse of all, the japan trip is within the checkup dates. -.- kns

and hope my dreams will take me there



from now to sept 11 it will days of stoning in the lab. i have no idea on how much further i can proceed in this project. -.-

even our supervisor told us that she did not help us at all with the codes, so we should be confident in our presentation since we coded ourselves without help. >_>

it'll be days and days of stoning in the lab.

that's elmo's song



pr2 sucked. :(

a few groups in front of us did quite well, while there's a few who did quite badly. ours was quite badly done i think. we screwed up quite badly when they asked us about the chat. we were like completely lost for words. have this huge feeling that we have to come back during the holidays. oh no. what a bad sign.

it feels different today. heh

backstabbers are around. there are those who'd be the one bootlicking, and they are those who'll 'try' to save your asses but in the end makes it worse for you. tsk

no more hiding who i wanna be



stoics outing!

this movie outing was supposed to be on tuesday, but somehow a few of us couldn't make it, so they shifted to this sat. i think it's the first time that we're actually late for the movie. like about 5-10mins late. heh. watched g.i joe. didn't really want to watch this show as I'm not afan of such movies, but i'd say it's a pretty nice movie. sacrificing things for romance, and it just came back again. the main actor looks like the one from step up 1. had ajisen after that and rushed for cow's BBQ.

I almost got on the wrong LRT. it seemed so confusing since it's alternating, but I managed to reach there at about 7.45. walking to the place from the lrt station can be confusing too. luckily the cow gave us a map in the invitation, or else I'll be lost. @_@

the majority of the people there are the poly mates. didn't really eat much from there since I was quite full from the ajisen @_@ i didn't get much revenge from what I had last year, i'll just have to wait for the next one, that's if we're still contactable after we graduate. hah.

pr2 presentation this tuesday! my wonderful judges seemed very fierce and demanding, let's hope we can impress ms kwan sothat we don't have to come back when sip ends. she told everyone that if they think we haven't done enough in the presentation we'll have to stay back and continue doing it. what is this -_-

i think i should book my ftt soon and start learning driving soon. i'm just scared that i don't have enough time for the lessons and the actual test. x_x what if i get enlisted and i haven't even finished learning, good game.

going to the cow's party made me think of that, it somehow tells you who are your actual friends are, and how long you are able to keep your contact with each other. it's amazing that you would still have contact with your secondary school mates, and even your primary school mates. although it could just one or two, but i think it's already good enough.

i remembered about the days in my primary school when I had alot of fun. when he school was in the new campus, i'd spend most of my recess time play hopscotch in school and playing five stones. those young innocent minds we had last time bring us so much fun together. when we moved to the new campus at primary 6, those traditions somehow died on me, but once in awhile there's always a game of five stones. not to forget the days when i broke my arm when playing ice and water at the playground with the guys in my class ;-; since then, all of us avoided the playground, or practically we stopped going to the playground already. haha. those are the days that i won't forget that easily. sec 1 and 2 days were good too. ahah. it's like some routine, first 4 years of loneliness from primary 1 - 4, then 4 years of fun till sec 2. after that 4 years of loneliness till year 2, and maybe 4 years of fun and happiness again? that'll include NS inside. then after that it'll be another 4 years of loneliness during work and uni (if i can ever get there). neverending routine. but it's good to get used to it.

i think i'm too used to getting lonely or being alone that sometimes i feel so awkward being in a big group. ugh.

time to sleep.

you smiling back at me



today marks the last day of school for the semester. however i have to drag my legs and body to school till september. -_-

i feel like i've been pushed into another circle of friends. somehow they don't seem to be very willing about it :/

time to not think so much.

i walk alone



I just don't like to be someone's guarantor. she owes money from the person and that person comes and find me. what am I going to do?

each time whenever they call, I'd feel like I'm the victim instead of her. afterall she has her security and protection while I don't. bah.

don't leave me crying



things can really go unexpected.

hope it wouldn't go that weird >.>

PR2 happens next week. hope it'll be a good one. can't imagine how we're going to answer those questions that asks on why our project is so irrelevant to our topic. imagine with all these questions we're going to fail due to those, i wouldn't know what to do. seriously.

my lappy has somehow been screwing up lately. don't know if it's either the connection, the games, or my lappy itself that has been causing these kind of problems. probably there's a need to reformat again >_>

this week will be another busy weeekkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk. just four more weeks till sip officially ends! can't wait for sept to arrive. probably i should stop going choir. since the main voices in tenor are going away for SIP, and that leaves the 4 of us, it seems quite demoralising to continue. especially when the basses are very strong where like one of them could overpower the four of us. but since it'll be my last semester there, might as well make full use of it and go do what I can.

things won't be taken for granted. maybe it's time to make the first move soon. but I'm just scared it wouldn't go so well. maybe it's meant to be like that. not all firsts will always succeed. sometimes I'am quite amazed on how people can last through so many relationships and yet never get laidback from the outcome of further separations. they could just go on and on and never get depressed/sad over it. people have high expectations. oh well. maybe that's why the good girls always get the good guys. heh.

for me there is no one but youuu



went out to chill with a few choir mates at pasir ris park at the night. this is probably the first outing that we ever had since we knew each other in choir. heh. it's called summer breeze and it's quite located inside of pasir ris park. pretty good ambience I think. similar one to the place at punggol park, maybe there isn't any sight of mosquito coils. haha.

there was about 8 of us, some juniors and mostly seniors. it was a pretty enjoyable time, since most of the time we're sharing stories. aaron was exceptionally late somehow -_- he said he'll reach about 8pm and in the end he turned up only at 11. a few of them wanted to go back early and aaron didn't really have a way back home other than taking a cab, which would cost a bomb since he live in woodlands :/ so I've decided to stay overnight with him, don and yanya.

it was an interesting night I'd suppose. sharing stories always seem to keep me interested. to think that they are sharing their past relationship stories. i hope i'll be able t o learn a few things from them and see what i'll be able to do if I ever get interested in someone. well there might be. haha.

there's a lot of things that I've yet to learn, or maybe yet to encounter. probably I wouldn't dare to start that soon I guess. money is always a big issue. can't really lots of things without it. :/

last week was quite a busy week. now choir is over, hopefully I'll be able to go home on time. >.>

time to find a temp job soooooooon! it feels very bad to keep getting from my mom. plus with the japan trip, i felt more demoralising. i guess i wouldn't really be enjoying my time in japan that what i expected. since the deposit is paid, guess I'll just have to go. :/

suddenly, this feeling is something different, very different. hope it wouldn't be a wrong one.
as for now, making a good first impression is always a good thing. heh.

so please baby tryyyy



the concert yesterday was quite a success! although there were alot of last minute work that needs to be done, but overall it went through well.

the management were quite impressed with this concert. there's a huge improvement as compared to last year. to think that I won't be able to enjoy everything while it could last. heh. 4 months is already over and it'll be probably a few months more before I'll just give my best for the choir. hopefully there would be better opportunities for them in the future. to take one step slowly at a time, and

had the thoughts of continuing choir after I graduate, but maybe I shouldn't..

maybe I have to let certain things go. sometimes it never seems to be good to keep clinging on the things that you have and never wanted to try something different or start again.

it's good to think far, but maybe not that far.

the cow told me that our supervisor has asked for something different for our project. it was something that she said we didn't need it, and now she wants it. it's something that the both of us have no idea on doing it. for these sixteen weeks, both of us kept telling ourselves that what we are doing now has no relevance to our topic. somehow there's a chance that we'll have to retake this bloody MP again, and the chance just suddenly got higher. dammit

what am i supposed to do



i'm going alone for the japan trip :(

well maybe.

the interview was pretty bad. got rejected in 5minutes. they said they wanted to find people that could last until next year, probably june or somewhere near there. doh.

ohwell, I wasn't really interested in that too. imagine the consequences if you made any mistakes. >.>

this month is going to be a busy month, hope I'll be able to pull through.

concert tmr!

keeps telling you don't give up



read my old blog some time back and realised how things have really changed over these past five years. wow. to think that I've blogged for five years!

my phone is dying. this is bad. sometimes for no reason it will just switch off by itself. -.- probably that I've dropped it quite a number of times. :x

going for the job interview tonight. read on the website that one of their requirements would require to be keen on sports. the thing is that I'm not a fan on soccer and if they'd ask me questions about soccer, first one to die out would probably be me. if somehow I manage to get the job, seems like I need to make more sacrifices again. :(

PR2 is just next week! although the stress level is somehow there for me, but time somehow seems to pass very fast. it's like a blink of an eye, and I've endured 15 weeks of jail life in school.

probably a few things that I need to worry now:
- concert
- PR2
- cow's birthday gift
- finding timeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

cuz the party don't stop



time to aim to take piano lessons when I'm older. I think being able to play a musical instrument seems to be a good talent. probably a good way to please girls :x

F701 IFC 3.1 21 Au Kum Yun
F702 IFC 3.1 20 Lim Teck Choow
F703 IFC 3.1 19 Ng Choon Seong
F704 IFC 3.1 19 Seow Yong Cheong, Richard
F705 IFC 3.1 20 Woon Wei Yuann
F706 IFC 3.1 19 Elvia Suryadi
F707 IFC 3.1 14 Long Siow Leng
F708 IFC 3.1 20 Siew Wilson

and my class had to be the one with the least amount of people left. :(

so please tell me whyyy



I was interested at that japan trip when one of the lecturers posted last week. thought about it a few times whether if I wanted to go. called my mum and asked and she said whether if there such trips in the past. I told her yes and she questioned on why I didn't tell her previously. she said it was fine to go, but I had to keep thinking of what other things that could happen :/ somehow they wanted me to go. signed up for it and I checked the list, not many people that I know are going, and even that, probably most of them have their partners to sleep with in the hotel. probably they'll have to put me with another stranger. later get some weirdo. x_x

a guy called me for an interview. a job that charlie introduced me. somehow i wanted to scold the guy who called me. he kept telling me that i'm not able to commit well since I couldn't even make time for an interview. although the things he said are pretty true, but I don't know. hope it'll be a good one. if I get accepted, wonder if they'll let me off for a few days in sept and oct. =(

the blogger from my house and in school is different. I can't select the bold and italics at home -_-

it's all in the game of love

swear like a sailor