JORDAN.

few more days before i fly off to kangaroo land.

no computer
no psp
probably less usage of phone since they said chances of using the power points is low.
and i think i'm going to rot again soon, but with the horrible delay in my internet connection i don't know.

ask me out pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

sex bomb



I just felt that I'm doing stupid things again. Ohemgee.



I need lessons on how to express myself better. Someone help?

I'm becoming more and more reluctant to go out with my mom. I just don't know why. It wasn't like that last time but I just find her very very irritating.

I'd be more than happy to get someone to listen to my problems and provide me with advice but it doesn't always work out that way. Somehow that loneliness comes around me everywhere. Be it in camp or at home. I don't know. Maybe I hardly go out and therefore isn't really sociable with people. Maybe that's why I treat close friends like somehow they were part of my life.

I don't like being alone or feel lonely. Even if there's so many people beside me somehow or another I feel like I'm in my own world. Sigh



sometimes I think when people talk to me about their problems or whatsoever, I think that it would be the other way round instead. But the thing is that till now I haven't really found someone that I can blurt out what I wanted to say. The feeling inside seems so uncomfortable.

Am I unable to accept change? Seems like whenever I feel like I'm in a new environment everything seems completely stranger to me. What happened during secondary sch life affected me in some way, but whenever my friends asked what happened I just find it so hard to even explain to them what exactly happened. Maybe I do need help but I don't know what to tell them about.

I seem to get more irritated over minor things easily or I should say that I'm finding my mum more irritating as the days go by. Has my tolerance level dropped? I don't really know....

It seems to be a good thing for me to post what I feel about things since I doubt anyone still reads these. I didn't post much info about me having a blog or whatsoever. I don't know. I don't know. Ahhhhhh.



i think i'm having depression. omg.

i reliase i get emotional easily when something doesn't go my way.

or maybe that lonesome feeling is coming back again...

till now i still haven't really found someone in camp to talk to really share my problems. although somehow or another there were casual talks about it, but i never really found ways to talk more..

or at least the ones that i can really talk to don't seem to be that way anymore...

sigh what should i do? :(

domino



long weeeekend!

this period sort of feels like india where they start clearing offs become we fly.

but somehow i dont get anything fruitful for such a long break. not like i have things to do o ther than just hogging at the computer and staring at the screen. at least i have something to do which is to watch running man! :o

:/

step



the activation was a false alarm.

hopefully it will be like that throughout :s


the battalion cohesion was kinda cool...... but although somehow i think it feel like we're desperate for the girls to perform. heh.

should i try on wordpress? hmm

somebody to love



r5 wasn't that bad actually. mainly because the factor that our vehicle kept breaking down and we had a chance to return to get a quick shower. that was awesome.

but nevertheless it was kind of fun. we get to know our commanders more and know each other better in a way or another.

jokes are fun too. hahaha

and that sums up the end of local outfields and probably the last one will be at kangaroo land. though there were some sayings about summex next year but i somehow just dont feel like going for it =((

roly poly

swear like a sailor