JORDAN.

The new year is starting! This year went quite well I think. At least all the things went pretty smoothly. Making new year resolutions will be quite redundant since they wouldn't work on me somehow HAHA!

I think I'm into the kpop craze. Started watching invincible youth and it was pretty funny in a way. Teaches us a few moral lessons too. Heh.

At least this is a chance to reserve a post on the last day of the new year!



MERRY CHRISTMAS PEOPLE!

attended lona's wedding last night. her face looked so much puffier probably due to her pregnancy.... but nevertheless it was a good day for her.

it was the usual menu though. i wondered if i could change that during my wedding. dont have any intentions on going for those traditional ones. maybe cancel out on sharks fin etc? at that moment of time i was thinking of hawaiian style. LOL

this month's expenditure is way overrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr. :((



I think I can fall asleep better in camp then at home. Maybe its because I spend more time in camp then at home and thus I became so used to it. Or maybe my mind is telling me about the presence of the computer around. Geez.

I think I'm starting to spend too much time on the compuiter that my eyes seem painful. Guess its time to change glasses! Had thoughts of trying contacts, but my eyes are so sensitive I have problem opening them wide myself. That could probably be why my eyes are closed when I take photos :@ or maybe I'm just not photogenic :(

Mum went for holiday and that leaves me at home alone for some time! I feel like going korea or japan sometime for holiday sia. But money will always be a problem.

Sometimes it hurts so much inside me when I wouldn't know what to say at times. I can be as quiet or at most just laughing at their jokes. I seem to be so pathetic or maybe too timid or not so outspoken. :(



Ippt is next week and I think I'm just going to fail it again. I still wonder how the heck I ever did 8 pullups that time. Hopefully before I ord I can hopefully pass it.

I don't think I put enough effort into the pt I did :/
I still have that 'easily give up' mentality into me leh my bones has been cracking each time I do a pushup.

Ohwell hopefully I can really improve and maintain it. Heh.



I feel so suagu when I went MBS for the first time with a few ohana mates to celebrate ivy's 21st. Though I have been practising for ndp around that area, I didn't really show interest in actually walking inside. It looks spacious and atas too. HAHA. Big shopping area with lots of shop that I've never heard of the names before. The room wasn't that bad too. And their lifts machiam mini rocket. Can reach 5x stories in like 10secs? Nevertheless, it was a good catchup session with the ohana mates and I did manage to see how people can be crazy about korean songs too.

I shld go learn another language, either jap or korean I think. Although the jap that I took in tp was pretty good, I think I might try for korean since I watch more korean variety shows. Going korea for a holiday would be good too! But all the money is one thing ._.

Now that wallaby is over, I should really focus on things that I should or want to do. New year resolutions? Not like it will happen anyway. I can't even what are this year's ones too. Heh. Better not expect too much perhaps. Take one slow step and hopefully it will be good. Or maybe I should be less lazy and be more courageous in the things I do. :s



Last night's guard duty was hell for me. Not that the guard commanders are sucky. Couldn't sleep the whole night due to the splitting headache and the unconsistent fever happening around.

I realise I was also thinking about weird things that I couldn't describe at all. That 12hours last night was very very torturous. Its been a longlong time ever since I felt like that. Or I should say its been some time since I fell ill.

I'm still having a headache when I'm typing this too! Ohemgee. At least the weekend is here and hopefully it will be better when I get to rest at home



Maybe the reason why I seem quite anti-social or have nothing to say when I go out with friends could be that there's not much common topic to talk about. I mean, I keep doing the same old things and hardly reach out to doing new things and this could probably be the reason :/ well its not like I seem quiet.

Although there are many times that I want to be quiet and not talk at all, it seem so impossible to do that. The awkwardness is there and it isn't nice for it to be there.

There's so many things I want to change about myself but I don't know how to.

Suddenly there's so many things that I want to buy. People in my camp has been talking about ps3 stuffs and it made me want to get one too! At least it can keep me entertained when the internet problems happens at home. Or unless if I can get a bigger tv to put in my room and it would be even better! Haha. But the available sace is just so little in my room. Thought I still have the old sega saturn and ps1 still in my room.

I need to really pack my room and throw away the stuffs that I don't need at all. Maybe throw away all my secondary sch textbooks and probably a few of my poly ones.



Sometimes I don't reaLly like the life of doing nothing at all. Maybe when I'm in the working lifestyle then maybe it would be a good thing. HAHAHA

I was so interested in becoming a specialist during bmt. Idk what gave me that persistent feeling but probably I want to lead men and do what I can to make their life better. You know where there are chances where their sgts would mistreat them? I always wanted to be the social guy around, or at least someone where my men could trust on. Anyway all of these isn't possible anymore since the chance was lost and I didn't grab it properly.

Maybe its myself that I'm so lazy to look for opportunities, I always let the opportunities look for me instead.

I think I'm a weird person. Very very weird person. Help?



I should try to control my diet. Think it might be possible to stop snacking in camp but not at home since I keep snacking since there's always food in the fridge :D

As much as I don't feel lik asking people to pay up if I pay the bill first. I mean, shouldn't you have the gut feeling to at least pay your share? Although this seems so calculative but I think whenever money comes to the topic, everyone would just go crazy about it heh.

I'm almost 75% there in completing ns! If you actually look back it seems quite fast actually. Except for maybe during certain periods like fieldcamp or things that we didn't like to do where we kept thinking that time was passing very very slowly. Hahaha.

I couldn't find any appropriate blogskin for now since this one is kinda old already. At least it seems quite meaningful to me somehow. Oh and I hate the tagboard spam -.-



i am fat.

i think i eat too much until my stomach became bigger. omg.

whenever i wear shirts people will see my big fat tummy and play with it. ohmy.

i shall try to control my diet, but that is so harddddddd.

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