JORDAN.

the interest to blog is like last time again. maybe i should insert some effort to pen down my feeling in this little place.

somehow i can reflect back on the things that i wrote last time. good things or bad things, there are many of them.

i think i've always wanted to cry. i dont know. even though i'm around with so many people, there's still always the tingly feeling of loneliness within. i have no idea why.

school's been busy. literally i have been spending the last two weeks doing school stuffs and reaching home around 11. i always enjoy good company.

at least i think the company that i'm having now, somehow will be close together.

but once the thing ends, it's pretty hard to meet up again unless someone initiates.

i'm not a person who initiates, or at least i dont know why. maybe i've been a follower for such, such a long time.

there's so many parts of me that i wish to change. but it seems like it will never happen. maybe it's changing slowly, but i guess i'm just trying to adapt to the environment gradually.

i feel lost sometimes, and often i feel left out too.

i'm trying not to be so emotional, but it just keeps happening and happening. although i try to be the joker around so that my mind would not think about such things.

i need someone to talk to again. but it's only that little bit.

guess i should be the listening ear and give advice if possible. heh.

standby

swear like a sailor