all it takes is you

2012-01-26T06:56:00.000+08:00

Happy new year people! Although its pretty late for this kind of thing to wish for. Heh. The festive mood isn't there for me anymore. The same old tradition happens everytime.

Its about time that I should start focus on studying. I realise all that I lack was probably focus. Thinking about getting first class honours is so difficult when I heard the numbers of first class isn't that high. But at least i should aim for a second class.

Its so hard for me to focus on things. I keep getting influenced by things easily. Like gaming, other stuffs. If I focused and studied properly during o levels I'd properly get better results and wouldn't land myself with a diploma that seems to be of no use to me anymore. Except for the job entries I guess haha. I neeed focusssss! :(

2012-01-13T18:09:00.001+08:00

New management seems bad.

Went for sim course briefing. Somehow it made my mind a lot clearer on the course info and how their cirriculum works. Somehow the course subjects for acct and banking are so similar. I still have abt 2 months more to decide before the application closes. But the fees are so expensive. Even the application fees are costly -_-

Better think wisely.

Some people's tolerance level can only be that high and yet people still go overboard. Tsk

2012-01-03T10:02:00.002+08:00

And we're back to the dreaded camp life rotting all the way. Heh. I forgot to keep a post for 1st jan! Roar.

I am bored and I don't know what to write. Boo.

2011-12-31T16:07:00.002+08:00

The new year is starting! This year went quite well I think. At least all the things went pretty smoothly. Making new year resolutions will be quite redundant since they wouldn't work on me somehow HAHA!

I think I'm into the kpop craze. Started watching invincible youth and it was pretty funny in a way. Teaches us a few moral lessons too. Heh.

At least this is a chance to reserve a post on the last day of the new year!

2011-12-26T00:25:00.001+08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS PEOPLE!

attended lona's wedding last night. her face looked so much puffier probably due to her pregnancy.... but nevertheless it was a good day for her.

it was the usual menu though. i wondered if i could change that during my wedding. dont have any intentions on going for those traditional ones. maybe cancel out on sharks fin etc? at that moment of time i was thinking of hawaiian style. LOL

this month's expenditure is way overrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr. :((

2011-12-18T21:31:00.002+08:00

I think I can fall asleep better in camp then at home. Maybe its because I spend more time in camp then at home and thus I became so used to it. Or maybe my mind is telling me about the presence of the computer around. Geez.

I think I'm starting to spend too much time on the compuiter that my eyes seem painful. Guess its time to change glasses! Had thoughts of trying contacts, but my eyes are so sensitive I have problem opening them wide myself. That could probably be why my eyes are closed when I take photos :@ or maybe I'm just not photogenic :(

Mum went for holiday and that leaves me at home alone for some time! I feel like going korea or japan sometime for holiday sia. But money will always be a problem.

Sometimes it hurts so much inside me when I wouldn't know what to say at times. I can be as quiet or at most just laughing at their jokes. I seem to be so pathetic or maybe too timid or not so outspoken. :(

2011-12-15T16:39:00.004+08:00

Ippt is next week and I think I'm just going to fail it again. I still wonder how the heck I ever did 8 pullups that time. Hopefully before I ord I can hopefully pass it.

I don't think I put enough effort into the pt I did :/
I still have that 'easily give up' mentality into me leh my bones has been cracking each time I do a pushup.

Ohwell hopefully I can really improve and maintain it. Heh.

2011-12-13T22:09:00.005+08:00

I feel so suagu when I went MBS for the first time with a few ohana mates to celebrate ivy's 21st. Though I have been practising for ndp around that area, I didn't really show interest in actually walking inside. It looks spacious and atas too. HAHA. Big shopping area with lots of shop that I've never heard of the names before. The room wasn't that bad too. And their lifts machiam mini rocket. Can reach 5x stories in like 10secs? Nevertheless, it was a good catchup session with the ohana mates and I did manage to see how people can be crazy about korean songs too.

I shld go learn another language, either jap or korean I think. Although the jap that I took in tp was pretty good, I think I might try for korean since I watch more korean variety shows. Going korea for a holiday would be good too! But all the money is one thing ._.

Now that wallaby is over, I should really focus on things that I should or want to do. New year resolutions? Not like it will happen anyway. I can't even what are this year's ones too. Heh. Better not expect too much perhaps. Take one slow step and hopefully it will be good. Or maybe I should be less lazy and be more courageous in the things I do. :s

2011-12-09T13:08:00.002+08:00

Last night's guard duty was hell for me. Not that the guard commanders are sucky. Couldn't sleep the whole night due to the splitting headache and the unconsistent fever happening around.

I realise I was also thinking about weird things that I couldn't describe at all. That 12hours last night was very very torturous. Its been a longlong time ever since I felt like that. Or I should say its been some time since I fell ill.

I'm still having a headache when I'm typing this too! Ohemgee. At least the weekend is here and hopefully it will be better when I get to rest at home

2011-12-08T10:38:00.000+08:00

Maybe the reason why I seem quite anti-social or have nothing to say when I go out with friends could be that there's not much common topic to talk about. I mean, I keep doing the same old things and hardly reach out to doing new things and this could probably be the reason :/ well its not like I seem quiet.

Although there are many times that I want to be quiet and not talk at all, it seem so impossible to do that. The awkwardness is there and it isn't nice for it to be there.

There's so many things I want to change about myself but I don't know how to.

Suddenly there's so many things that I want to buy. People in my camp has been talking about ps3 stuffs and it made me want to get one too! At least it can keep me entertained when the internet problems happens at home. Or unless if I can get a bigger tv to put in my room and it would be even better! Haha. But the available sace is just so little in my room. Thought I still have the old sega saturn and ps1 still in my room.

I need to really pack my room and throw away the stuffs that I don't need at all. Maybe throw away all my secondary sch textbooks and probably a few of my poly ones.

2011-12-06T21:20:00.002+08:00

Sometimes I don't reaLly like the life of doing nothing at all. Maybe when I'm in the working lifestyle then maybe it would be a good thing. HAHAHA

I was so interested in becoming a specialist during bmt. Idk what gave me that persistent feeling but probably I want to lead men and do what I can to make their life better. You know where there are chances where their sgts would mistreat them? I always wanted to be the social guy around, or at least someone where my men could trust on. Anyway all of these isn't possible anymore since the chance was lost and I didn't grab it properly.

Maybe its myself that I'm so lazy to look for opportunities, I always let the opportunities look for me instead.

I think I'm a weird person. Very very weird person. Help?

2011-12-05T09:48:00.000+08:00

I should try to control my diet. Think it might be possible to stop snacking in camp but not at home since I keep snacking since there's always food in the fridge :D

As much as I don't feel lik asking people to pay up if I pay the bill first. I mean, shouldn't you have the gut feeling to at least pay your share? Although this seems so calculative but I think whenever money comes to the topic, everyone would just go crazy about it heh.

I'm almost 75% there in completing ns! If you actually look back it seems quite fast actually. Except for maybe during certain periods like fieldcamp or things that we didn't like to do where we kept thinking that time was passing very very slowly. Hahaha.

I couldn't find any appropriate blogskin for now since this one is kinda old already. At least it seems quite meaningful to me somehow. Oh and I hate the tagboard spam -.-

2011-12-01T16:21:00.001+08:00

i am fat.

i think i eat too much until my stomach became bigger. omg.

whenever i wear shirts people will see my big fat tummy and play with it. ohmy.

i shall try to control my diet, but that is so harddddddd.

wedding dress

2011-11-30T01:37:00.002+08:00

i need to express myself better.

everytime i want to blog about something i would just forget about it whenever i reach the posting screen. -_-

i realised that i wasn't the old character i have when i was younger. recalling where i could give some advice to people who need help, or maybe a listening ear and help their problems. although somehow i might be able to be a listening ear now, somehow it'll just go in and comes out.

or maybe my memory is failing. short term memory? i don't know.

there's always people that i think i can talk to, but it always come to a point in my mind that i wouldn't want to disturb or burden them. or even that i should just keep it to myself since i don't even know how to express it properly.

idk if i'm weird or emo or some lame person, but i know i always try not to be so emotional, or at least hide my problems away from my friends or something.

sometimes when there's laughter around i don't feel it and yet i'll think about other things. or maybe i'll laugh at my own stupidity and be emo again.

emoboyyyy.com

lonely lonely

2011-11-28T11:10:00.002+08:00

genting trip was pretty fun, at least it was an eye opener for me since the last t ime i went there was prolly like 10 over years ago. at least somehow i can have vague memories of the customs or smth. heh.

first time entering the casino. waswn't that bad, except for the smoking areas where the smoke is super thick. gave a little shot on slots and table games and didn't really perform well, but it was a first time experience? if there's a chance to go again i wouldn't mind trying and hope to earn some back. LOL

maybe i should be really more observant in the things around me. hmm

cry cry

2011-11-25T10:03:00.001+08:00

i'm back!

it wasn't that really bad, probably except for the extreme of weather sometimes.

food was awesome. even the cookhouse food in camp is so much better than camp's one. portion wasn't that bad too.

r&r was so-so. at least its like ten times better than india's one. HAHAHAHA.

time to rest for abit before heading out to genting again tonight.

thoughts of a ps3 is comingggg! but i dont know if i shld really get it. heh

be my baby

2011-10-29T20:55:00.001+08:00

few more days before i fly off to kangaroo land.

no computer
no psp
probably less usage of phone since they said chances of using the power points is low.
and i think i'm going to rot again soon, but with the horrible delay in my internet connection i don't know.

ask me out pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

sex bomb

2011-10-22T21:35:00.000+08:00

I just felt that I'm doing stupid things again. Ohemgee.

2011-10-21T19:00:00.002+08:00

I need lessons on how to express myself better. Someone help?

I'm becoming more and more reluctant to go out with my mom. I just don't know why. It wasn't like that last time but I just find her very very irritating.

I'd be more than happy to get someone to listen to my problems and provide me with advice but it doesn't always work out that way. Somehow that loneliness comes around me everywhere. Be it in camp or at home. I don't know. Maybe I hardly go out and therefore isn't really sociable with people. Maybe that's why I treat close friends like somehow they were part of my life.

I don't like being alone or feel lonely. Even if there's so many people beside me somehow or another I feel like I'm in my own world. Sigh

2011-10-17T13:34:00.002+08:00

sometimes I think when people talk to me about their problems or whatsoever, I think that it would be the other way round instead. But the thing is that till now I haven't really found someone that I can blurt out what I wanted to say. The feeling inside seems so uncomfortable.

Am I unable to accept change? Seems like whenever I feel like I'm in a new environment everything seems completely stranger to me. What happened during secondary sch life affected me in some way, but whenever my friends asked what happened I just find it so hard to even explain to them what exactly happened. Maybe I do need help but I don't know what to tell them about.

I seem to get more irritated over minor things easily or I should say that I'm finding my mum more irritating as the days go by. Has my tolerance level dropped? I don't really know....

It seems to be a good thing for me to post what I feel about things since I doubt anyone still reads these. I didn't post much info about me having a blog or whatsoever. I don't know. I don't know. Ahhhhhh.

2011-10-15T09:30:00.003+08:00

i think i'm having depression. omg.

i reliase i get emotional easily when something doesn't go my way.

or maybe that lonesome feeling is coming back again...

till now i still haven't really found someone in camp to talk to really share my problems. although somehow or another there were casual talks about it, but i never really found ways to talk more..

or at least the ones that i can really talk to don't seem to be that way anymore...

sigh what should i do? :(

domino

2011-10-13T10:38:00.003+08:00

long weeeekend!

this period sort of feels like india where they start clearing offs become we fly.

but somehow i dont get anything fruitful for such a long break. not like i have things to do o ther than just hogging at the computer and staring at the screen. at least i have something to do which is to watch running man! :o

:/

step

2011-10-08T20:09:00.001+08:00

the activation was a false alarm.

hopefully it will be like that throughout :s

the battalion cohesion was kinda cool...... but although somehow i think it feel like we're desperate for the girls to perform. heh.

should i try on wordpress? hmm

somebody to love

2011-10-03T10:44:00.002+08:00

r5 wasn't that bad actually. mainly because the factor that our vehicle kept breaking down and we had a chance to return to get a quick shower. that was awesome.

but nevertheless it was kind of fun. we get to know our commanders more and know each other better in a way or another.

jokes are fun too. hahaha

and that sums up the end of local outfields and probably the last one will be at kangaroo land. though there were some sayings about summex next year but i somehow just dont feel like going for it =((

roly poly

2011-09-14T06:40:00.001+08:00

I think I lost the interest to blog again. Or maybe there isn't anything to talk about or I don't have any interest :x

Few more weeks to kangaroo land!

2011-09-05T20:12:00.003+08:00

Oh this is cool! I can blog from my phone. This is awms shit. Haha but somehow it seems kinda different. But just to conclude:

I hate outfield. :(

2011-08-30T00:33:00.003+08:00

apologies for the long hiatus! didn't feel like blogging somehow.

first time going jb with the stoics gang and can say also my first time going jb LOL
experience wasn't that bad. ktv+k lunch was so-so. cakes at secret recipe was awsm although most of us were dying from it. movie was decent and dinner was good too.

actually, the company was good and that makes the whole day trip worthwhile despite waking up quite early. jokes and laughter and sharing of life stories.. hopefully there'll be another chance of such outings again. genting perhaps? that's what i heard from them

camp days were pretty short for these two weeks with clearing of offs etcetc and it will all bring to desperate days in september. i so hate outfield. time to stock up on SPAM. hehehe

presidental election was recently over. could see that theres quite a crowd who wasnt very pleased with tony winning it. maybe he'll be able to convince them i guess.

i'm tired x_x

asdf

2011-08-07T21:03:00.002+08:00

the MA wasn't very hopeful at all. :/

at least the doctor cleared my doubt about my irregular leg length. however he mentioned something about my knee with the result that i couldn't straight both legs together...

now i'd have to go for wallaby now :((

few more days to the actual parade! hope i really dont screw it up. i heard that it's gonna be bad if anything screws up. my rsm is already an eyesore. seeing him for three months can already die.

why can't people just say things in a nicer way? must he always scold in every sentence he says? makes me feel like he's willing to do anything to complete his job. i wonder if he talks like that to his family/children etc.

you can say that we are taught to listen to instructions, but if you can't give your instructions nicely or properly, how are we going to listen to them properly? -.-

knuckles bruised

2011-07-31T23:36:00.003+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MYSELF! okay ,maybe a belated one :/

thanks everyone for their wellwishes and birthday wishes. was kinda shocked to actually see so many wishes from fb. although i could expect some other people to do it, but nvm. can't be too greedy :x

august will be a month to rest for awhile before more outfield comes again in september

i hope my MA on tues can give me something good :B

chain hang low

2011-07-24T16:51:00.002+08:00

i am so not prepared for outfield next week :(

ndp performances so far was pretty okay... except with the late timings when i reach home it'll always be like 12am. at least just two more sundays and it'll finish. maybe indeed i'll feel something is missing on saturdays after giving it away for the past 3 months or so. haha

time for a ndp song craze for this period. still prefer the previous versions of the songs, sounds better than the current ones. at least this year isn't that bad.

one singapore

2011-07-10T17:54:00.000+08:00

screwed up internet.

#@*()*$()*

come on over

2011-07-03T17:45:00.001+08:00

nothing can spoil a weekend of mine except for the bad latency in the connection

how i wished the fibre optic connection would come to my area asap! -_-

oh maybe the thoughts of field camp can spoil the weekend moods too :s

sexy naughty bitchy

2011-07-01T20:13:00.002+08:00

outfield month! :(

so not looking forward to it.

and many birthday boys in my bunk and i happen to be one of them. i wonder what is going to happen to me on that day especially when im outfield. omg

who says

2011-06-26T20:25:00.001+08:00

this blog is a place for me to make little notes of what happened within, not like anyone reads anymore. or there anyone? lol

outfield is going to start real soon!

hush

2011-06-24T22:46:00.002+08:00

my legs are dying from this week's training.

:(

sign

2011-06-19T20:13:00.002+08:00

i feel the pinch of fully burnt saturdays.

reached home at 12am last night.

ohmy.

at least the rehearsals at the floating platform was kinda awesome. the weather yesterday was good, although sweat keeps going into my eyes -.- it was a cool experience anyway.

:(

this

2011-06-13T16:26:00.003+08:00

i think my sats are going to get burnt till i ord. oc is going to implement the rt system for those ippt failures... back to tekong life? lol

i have no idea how long i'm going to get a silver, and to maintain it throughout too. omg.

louder

2011-06-10T22:15:00.001+08:00

the old specs are officially gone.

there goes the sense of security.

ndp training is going to begin at the floating platform soon. sat nights burnt too =((( wonder what time i'll be able to reach home -_-

one step at a time

2011-06-05T13:45:00.003+08:00

with my saturdays burnt due to ndp rehearsals, plans of having a 21st party have to be scraped and outfield on my birthday makes me feel so sad. so many key events that i'd like to have couldn't be possible anymore..

now i'd just realise how the bond within my campmates isn't as strong as last time anymore. wonder how it's going to last during future exercises. heh.

a close bunkmate is transferring to another unit for attachment for a few months, or maybe till he ords. i just don't know why but although i didn't really talk to him much, it feels like a good talking friend is gone. at least he's one of the person that i'd share my stuffs about him and he'd share his to me too.

i'm feeling so emo nowadays =(

mean

2011-05-22T19:02:00.002+08:00

back to the dreaded days in camp with no more leaves.

sad ttm.

a wasted block leave imo. lol.

hiding underneath

2011-05-16T14:42:00.003+08:00

and the block leave starts, with me rotting at home doing nth.

meetup with the stoics peeps was fun. atl east there was smth to talk to and share some parts of life with the rest.

oh those memories.

time to rot somemore i guess.

is it worth the expense spending so much on games? lol

mr taxi

2011-05-07T06:11:00.001+08:00

outfield sucks to the max. eww

and i am scratching and feeling in pain till like nobody's business.

imagine getting fed by mosquitoes. dam uncomfortable.

and yet i am expecting more of it to come. dammit

mr taxi taxi taxi

2011-05-02T09:31:00.000+08:00

some faves i have for now:
- patapon
- koi

lol. and i so hate outfield with camo on =(

tattoo

2011-04-23T01:31:00.001+08:00

i think i'm addicted to koi bubble tea. awsm.

backseat

2011-04-17T19:49:00.002+08:00

i miss gatherings.

and it's getting busier in camp =(( i want my slack days back pleaseeeee

stuck like glue

2011-04-06T09:24:00.001+08:00

i miss choir now.

but i dont think i'd have any chance into joining any choirs now since my voice is getting worse from not singing/practising for a long long time. lol

sigh.

at least maybe i can try.

it's so sexy

2011-04-02T08:54:00.002+08:00

another week of rotting at home while the second frame comes back from india.

and very soon hell will start again. hopefully it'll end really really soon. don't think i'd have much of a good impression from our new commanders.... lol

hopefully i can make my this week useful. not like anyone will ask me out or smth.. :s

what are words

2011-03-27T00:48:00.002+08:00

the more i see my friends' profile on fb, and especially if they have girlfriends. suddenly makes me think how useless i am -.-

when will i ever understand what is love?

tell me

2011-03-26T02:12:00.001+08:00

i suddenly feel something is missing. but i just don't know how to express it.

sleep at night

2011-03-20T10:13:00.003+08:00

i feel happy for my friends who passed out on friday as specs.

i feel sad that if i could have trained harder during bmt i would probably be with them too :x

ohwell.

time to book in tonight after rotting at home for a week :s

wait all day

2011-03-19T03:23:00.001+08:00

went for dreams 3 at tp.

made me feel like i never regretted joining arts in tp. heh

but in addition, i should have joined two if my timetable fits. :s

cali, cali, cali

2011-03-18T00:57:00.002+08:00

i wish i have a voice that could melt people's heartttttt. omg

that'd be so lovely.

been hearing those youtube singers and their voices are exceptionally outstanding. probably they went for music or vocal classes, or even it comes naturally.

if only.

once more

2011-03-15T21:46:00.003+08:00

i am back from indiaaaaaaa!

what i liked there :

the cold weather in the night is awesome in a way. you don't get this kind of weather in sg! haha. although it can be reallllllly cold. :/

ok that's practically the main thing i liked about india, didn't really like much of the rest. having them serve the same kind of food for 2 weeks was pretty sick enough. furthermore the servings wasn't enough either.

faced lots of sand, cow poops everywhere and roaming cows. it's a pretty good experience to see how overseas training would be like.

i gues the next one will be wallaby. i don't think i'm looking forward to that... or maybe that could be the sign of ORD coming! *hehehehe*

time to 'recuperate' with the whole week off staying at home and to rot again. -____-

need you now

2011-02-26T15:37:00.001+08:00

the thoughts of overseas training is bad.

especially when it comes to packing.

#@*()#)(*

i can't even squeeze everything.

jumpstart

2011-02-13T15:05:00.000+08:00

i feel so weirdi n me.

#*(@)#(*)$(*

touch so foreign

2011-02-06T13:06:00.001+08:00

YAY! I'M A BB USER NOW FINALLY! HAHAHAHAH

now at least i have some in camp entertainment. hopefully this phone can last long with my rough hands :x

now it's time to wait for BIS to be activated and here comes the fun! :D

angel

2011-02-05T12:05:00.002+08:00

happy chinese new year! pull your ears and may them be as long as rabbit ears!

a good long weekend to celebrate the new year. pretty good for most people perhaps.

nevertheless, can be considered as a good long rest...

took a look and realised that cousins and i were almost in our twenties, boy we are getting older soon.

if only memories were like a photo album that can be easily retrieved and reenacted..

uni applications are open for this month. contemplating whether to give local unis a try despite my bad gpa :/ most probably i'll be studying banking and finance or something similar. shall try applying for SIM soon. the application fees are costly @.@

boom

2011-01-29T17:26:00.003+08:00

ippt this week. kept having the mindset of failing but it somehow shocked me.

i passed! i have been wondering and wondering how the heck i managed to do 8 pullups that morning...

but, somehow i couldn't really run for that 2.4km. if only i ran abit faster and that $100 would be mine.

nevertheless, i'm happy enough! :D hopefully that 8 pullups can maintain or even go higher. hehehehe.

time for book in on a saturday! =(

extra terrestrial

2011-01-23T10:52:00.002+08:00

my sir said that we could relax for another week or two since the upperhead of my company isn't around :x

time to rest for sometime before i have to start preparing.

found a new site to download music! although i can't really remember what music i wanted to download now. by the time i reached home i'd forget the song title was. -_-

ohwell.

am i really having depression? :(

welcome to avenue q

2011-01-16T14:30:00.002+08:00

finally tried koi after sometime! pretty good i guess. doesn't take that sweet as compared to the normal sweettalk around. haha. i think these kind of bubble tea shops are improving in quality and healthiness since there's an option for the sugar level in it.

connection has been really, really bad these days. whenever my mom watches her videos online there's practically no chance for me to do anything at all. keeps disconnecting..

emo time =(

pray

2011-01-14T15:19:00.001+08:00

rotting more at home =(

down

2011-01-09T16:03:00.001+08:00

i need more moneyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!

what a way to spoil the weekend.

chariot

2011-01-09T02:50:00.002+08:00

the week is ending soon with lots of rotting at home.

went to tc's 21st. it was a longlonglong time that i've last met him. probably like 4 years ever since we graduated from stpats. haha. he mentioned that he'll be going overseas to study law. who knows he might be my future lawyer! haha.

although it seems very far away from my 21st, my mom keeps asking me on how i would like to organise it too. hmmm.

bathtub

2011-01-06T10:16:00.002+08:00

bring us to a world that we all belong
cherish in the world for now and for long
sailing down the deep blue sea
and we will find the joy for you

take out all your fears as it may exceed
throw it all away as much as you believe
in the stars and the yellow moon
and i'll be always thinking of you

i thought of the chorus for like a few years, but somehow i couldn't really find any verses to match with it :/

i think there's still one more childish song that i thought of the lyrics when i was way younger. i sometimes even wondered how i ever could make that simple song. hahahaha. probably will post the lyrics here sometime later.

keep your head up

2011-01-05T13:33:00.002+08:00

went back last week for awhile to see some of the members since i went there a month ago to watch their concert. pretty disappointing to see that the amount of people just keeps declining. hopefully this coming year will be more, though i wouldn't really pay much attention into coming anymore.

probably the next time i'll see them would be during their concert, try to give a last helping hand.

uni applications are open next month. time for me to start applying and decide what i want to study. been thinking about accountancy for quite some time. but however working at the finance department at my temp job made me think it's quite monotone... but that's how i live my life somehow, so shouldn't be that bad i guess :x

if only i have more money to spend right now. hmm.

手放開

2011-01-04T15:30:00.001+08:00

a boring week of leave when i can't really do much stuffs. nevertheless it's always better than staying in camp and doing nothing too.

oh well. time to enjoy and rot in the remaining leave days =(

don't cha

2011-01-01T09:24:00.002+08:00

happy 2011 everyone!

it seems like my blog is just a dead blog with not much people reading it, well at least it's somewhere that i can express myself in some ways.

forgot to make a post yesterday to mark the end of the year =(

nevertheless, time to enjoy my one week of leave rotting at home! -_-

popsicle

2010-12-26T03:41:00.002+08:00

this is another ranting session time!

if only i didn't stop the dragonboat trials during my poly life, and if i continued with gan, i could have probably passed my ippt earlier, get into command sch or might be an officer! haha.

what's more i would probably feel and look better in a way...

would an itouch be useful for camp entertainment? =/

for your entertainment

2010-12-19T19:47:00.002+08:00

christmas wishlist! *wishes for some kind soul to donate to me or give me LOL*

a non-camera smartphone so that i can keep myself entertained in camp.
a new computer!

i need to start saving up for a new computer hopefully by march or smth. as for the new phone. don't know which would be better though :s htc or blackberry? :/

two more weeks before my course ends. enduring!

toxic

2010-12-11T14:57:00.002+08:00

i'm feeling that i should be more outspoken in the future.
i think that i shouldn't be too quiet anymore.
i think that i should try to be myself and really myself.
i think that i should talk more.
i think that i'm going to be very lonely, or at least that lonesome feeling is coming into me again. :/
i think that i need to venture out into danger routes sometime.
i think that i need to think positively.

i think about that and i think about this. when will i actually decide upon something?

second week of course over and it was lesser mind-killing as compared to last week. but i'd guess these two weeks are just the mere beginning. the remaining weeks for the course would be weight straining i guess. i wonder if my back can handle :/

that ache came back when i was digging the soil. if i were to carry the bridges i wonder if i'll be able to handle them nicely.

i feel like having someone to talk to. but even if there is, i wouldn't know what to talk about. sometimes i feel that i know too little things, since i keep getting stuck around the old, usual things.

if i had you

2010-12-05T00:30:00.001+08:00

first week of the course made me feel like the discipline and almost everything is different. although new things are learnt, the learning curve is so steep that it's very hard to really capture and understand everything in such a short time. every week there'll be new stuffs. how am i going to cope and understand? :/

even studies in poly wasn't that packed too. :/

wanted

2010-11-28T01:31:00.002+08:00

i thought there would be at least a chance for me to downgrade my computer. look likes it seems quite impossible -_-

gave the upcoming sitex fair a miss since i think buying computer parts from simlim would definitely be much better as compared to buy those already built. whats more it'll be cheaper too. guess i'll have to wait for a few months more :/

or...

maybe i'm just being too paranoid over certain games that i have to follow their game specifications for it. :/

just pop'ed again this week, though the feeling isn't really as great as compared to the one at the floating platform. oh well. at least the first part of unit life is over and now for more tiring and more outfield. =/

hear your cry

2010-11-17T16:29:00.001+08:00

i am starting to have mixed feeling in my mind ):

sweet serendipity

2010-11-14T07:32:00.002+08:00

i so hate my connection. makes me feel even so depressed after a whole week in camp. sigh.

but if i were to get a desktop i'd have to worry about getting the wired connection. -_-

@*)(#*@)($*Z5

get away

2010-11-07T18:10:00.001+08:00

someone teach me how to love someone.

ugh.

hoot

2010-11-06T23:32:00.002+08:00

the sucky internet connection has been killing me this whole weekend. so much for having a long weekend and i can't practically do much. well since the only thing i do is gaming :x

been thinking of getting a new desktop. this is probably due to getting so many inconsistencies in the games that i play and i'm pretty fed up with the things that vista gives. thing is that i don't know what to get if i were to go for diy. heard there's an it fair coming soon. maybe i shall go take a look. only thing that worries me now is the amount of money i can spend. :/ sort of regretted now for staying at mac too long and not venturing out to others for more income.

it's coming to almost a month in unit life and somehow it feels better as compared to the first week when i just entered. managed to somehow know a few of my commanders better and know more about them too. afterall, i'd have to be with them till they ord next year.

with all these problems and brain-ickers in my mind, somehow i feel so weird and different. ohmyohmy.

and hopefully my connection gets better, even though it has been like that for months and months. sigh

safe

2010-10-30T02:27:00.001+08:00

emotional. just emotional.

3 weeks of the new unit life is over and i'd say it's still kinda hard for me to adapt. my bunkmates are nice and quite good to get along with, but some memories and feelings are just isn't there. maybe i took the safe route too much last time that now i fear so many things.

elevator

2010-10-17T18:06:00.002+08:00

the first week in unit was a very depressing week. very very very.

sigh.

hopefully it'll be better. :/

underwater

2010-10-08T09:29:00.001+08:00

the last 24km march was in a pretty good view i guess. went through parks and parks. cool wind, nice cold breeze. really makes the march cool. however with my heat rash and the dirty perspiration that i have in my equipment didn't make me feel so enjoyable.

and..

1. You are posted to HQ ARMOUR.
2. Your vocation is ARMD ENGR PNR(TRAINEE).

with a camp in the west.

ohmyohmy.

2010-10-05T12:59:00.000+08:00

POP LO!

will continue later at another post or smth. x:

2010-09-26T02:34:00.002+08:00

ne presentation is over.
games day is over.
drill comp is over.
my last bookout at tekong is over too.

actually, i can't really think that these 4 months passed by very fast. even though it can be quite a pain and tiring at certain points of time, especially this week i'll say, this short adventure really made me see and feel lot of things. how people react during certain situations and what they intend to do etcetc. it's just so amazing.

in addition, i think chances of me going into command school is so low now, still can't pass my ippt yet. hopefully i would get posted into a good unit. :/

jungle song

2010-09-19T13:59:00.002+08:00

bad week with bad stuffs.

at least i think it went pretty well.

i said yes to command school when the survey came earlier this week. i think even if i were to put no, they would just brainwash me so that i can put it yes. from what i heard from my other friends that if you put no it'll not make a good impression for the company. does that matter to me?

i guess i should try to tahan for these 2-3 weeks and hope for the better i guess. after what happened during the celebration is making me think that the remaining two weeks wouldn't be a good life. sigh.

time for change of blogskin soon. tsk

king of anything

2010-09-12T14:54:00.003+08:00

another sinful weekend of food, but i owuld say it was a good gathering i guess.

first time trying in a some sort of a chinese food ala carte buffet. pretty good food, price seems quite worth it. might give it a try some other time.

good gathering, sharing and playing of games. not that bad i guess.

counting down to 2nd oct!

don't ever look back

2010-09-11T13:18:00.002+08:00

a bad week for me i guess. i dropped back to zero! however i think i should be happy since it's a four day week and quite a few sgts from dragon coy have ord-ed.

counting down to just three weeks left in bmt. still deciding on command sch. don't think that my personal fitness would be able to handle the training. but the feeling of mingling around with your recruits is something that i'd love to have.

gatherings this week with falcon mates and my dragon section mates later. hopefully it'll be a fulfilling one!

teenage dream

2010-09-05T01:54:00.003+08:00

sitest over. no more high keys.

this week was pretty intensive with all the physical stuffs and trainings for ippt and soc. -_-

first time going to universal studio today. was quite hesitant into gong, but decided to give it a try. wasn't really that bad. did have fun at some of the rides. but i think the ones in aust are better. heh

it's confirmed that my passing out parade will be at the floating platform, and we're the first batch. hopefully i won't screw up so that other batches can enjoy such luxury too :s

hey soul sister

2010-08-23T17:36:00.003+08:00

making this 500th post in this blog short and simple since i'm going to book in like pretty soon. some things that i've done in this 2 weeks.

field camp is finally over! although it seemed to be shorter than usual or atl east what i expected, could see tremendous teamwork and with all the things done, i'm pretty happy it's over.

range was... pretty bad for me. kept reshooting till i was the last man left for the day shoot. but at least i think i got my marksman and i should be happy with it.

only thing that i disliked was the confinement after field camp in combo with the little hours of sleep during the range week due to the cleaning of rifles etcetc. barely 3 hours of sleep everyday makes me feel very lethargic, or at least mentally tired.

went out with a few platoon mates to chill out. probably one of my most sinful day. indulged like almost $40 worth of food. but at least it was worth the company, money and sharing of stories and talks about certain people. haha. hopefully more of these will come again.

i guess the only high key event left would be sitest happening tomorrow, and after that hopefully it'll be slack period time! at least it'll be more relaxing and less mind-taxing i hope. with a new intake coming in like next week, somehow it makes me feel like time in BMT is going through very fast, very very fast.

oh i believe

2010-08-08T11:41:00.002+08:00

the first week of bmt phase is over and all i can conclude is that, there won't be as much free time as compared to during the PTP phase.

some highlights this week.

GRENADE!

and i think i broke my zero too! time to improve slowly and hopefully i'll be able to pass my ippt by then. still thinking about the pathway about going command sch though. hearing about unit life can be so depressing and low morale, but im afraid i wouldn't be able to handle the tough training inside command sch. sighhhhh.

the first week in the new company went pretty smoothly i guess. my bunkmates are very motivating to each other and they get along and communicate with each other pretty well. i don't know how other sections behave but i think i'm quite lucky to be in a environment that i'm comfortable.

of course, i do hope that our old platoon will have a chance to be united together and end this bmt phase together too.

and my field camp is just next week too =( gota enjoy this long weekend before i die inside for 2 weeks.

a song of home

2010-07-31T02:01:00.002+08:00

i am no longer a teen!

this year's birthday was... pretty well spent I think.

the news broke out that my platoon will be split up. somehow i just couldn't control my emotions and broke out when we heard the news.

of course. who would like the feeling of being seperated? part of the reason why i would like enjoying coming for ptp mainly is because of the interaction with your platoon mates. and that's what make your bmt life fulfilling. but who knows it'll happen that we will be the ones getting split up instead.

i guess no one wanted this seperation. even my commanders were kinda shocked too.... but nothing can be done.

while barely half stayed, the remaining people were transferred to dragon coy on thursday.

the final goodbye was very emotional, and then i could barely control my emotions.

and i think i don't have the mood to continue writing for now... shall continue another time.

goooooodbye.

2010-07-24T12:57:00.002+08:00

let's hope it will not be true. and even if it is, i do hope most of us will remain.

last week of ptp left! after it'll be more and more tiring days and hell i guess.

it's a kinda sad thing that more and more of my commanders are going away or being transferred out for whatever reason. it's like all of us took some time to get the bond between each other. and when the bond is about to complete, things do change really fast. i guess being in the army is a super fast environment? heh. things can just keep changing and changing and each of us have absolutely no control about it. sigh

at least i know i'm going to run out of my teenage time soon =(

pyramid

2010-07-10T13:53:00.002+08:00

what a hectic weeeeek. took forever to go through. but nevertheless it was fun i'd suppose.

at least know i know that i won't have my friday nights free anymore. =(

and i think i lost weight too. :D

i guess i have to enjoy late bookin timings before the new batch of people start coming in. i think i'm enjoying my ptp life so far. good company of friends to share stories and suffer/enjoy together. though i wouldn't really know how unit life will feel like for now, but according to what i heard, i guess i should make the most of my bmt life.

when POP gets nearer, i guess i shall prepare long thankyou messages to my sgts, my bunkmates, that's if i remember what happened throughout the past 4 months. although there's not much happening for now, but i guess there wouldn't be much time to rest once ptp phase is over. noooooooooooooo

what do you want from me

2010-07-03T23:12:00.002+08:00

and finally eagle coy has finally POPed! felt quite happy and kinda sad at the sametime when they left. but ohwell, at least it'll be much quieter now.

it's pretty fast that one month has passed so quickly and that leaves three months left.

time to say goodbye to my friday nights already =( been coughing real bad this week and couldn't really sleep at all. however when i reach home, i just feel like playing my games and laze my sundays rotting at hojme before i go suffer for another week again. this is mental toughnessss! argh.

down to you

2010-06-26T21:41:00.002+08:00

the coffeeshop in my area finally opened after it was closed down for a few months! throughout this whole 10years staying in this estate, the coffee shop closed like 4 to 5 times.

however for this coffeeshop that just opened, it seemed to be a branch from a major franchise or something. better environment and the ambience seems much better as compared to the previous one.

lunch there was pretty good. at least now there's korean food in the estateeeee! dinner was somewhat pretty disappointing though. went back there at around 7pm and a few stores were sold out. at least the weekend crowd was there and maybe they weren't really prepared for it yet?

hopefully this one still stay long enough and stop closing. -_-

when the cold wind blow

2010-06-25T22:08:00.002+08:00

two things i learnt in camp this week.
STAND BY UNDERWEARRRRRRR
ENDUREEEEE!

three weeks have passed and i'm still a zero fighter ._. maybe i didn't really put much effort yet.pleaseplease please when will my first one begin?!

at least one good thing is that the bond between each other became closer and better as we get to talk and mingle around to those in other sections.

with my current commanders leaving and new ones taking over, i just hope i can get through in one piece :x

still thinking about trying for SCS or jus be a man forever hmmm

you go buy me another pair

2010-06-19T19:17:00.002+08:00

first two weeks is over!

lots of new faces, and very few similar faces. and i belong to a company called FALCON!

the first two weeks there was quite tiring and enjoyable of course. my commanders are pretty nice and friendly, as compared to the commanders of the other platoons. however since it's just the adapting week and they won't really punish us much, but who knows?

hopefully i can endure throughout these four months, shall try not to report sick too much =x suddenly my knee has been giving pain during a few of the lessons. my bunkmates are pretty socialable too, able to talk with and hopefully it'll stay like that throughout.

and now i'm at my first bookout stoning at home, trying to get some rest time.

pleasepleaseplease let me lose weight and hopefully pass my ippt. i still can't really believe it that i actually gained 1kg after coming out. HAHAHAHAAHAHHA.

at least i enjoyed my whole free saturday today, with some rest and catching up with the choirmates. hopefully i can get to enjoy my saturdays fully :/

we are the man of falcon company ah

2010-06-03T08:00:00.001+08:00

and off i go!

miinah

2010-06-01T11:46:00.002+08:00

two days left. and i'm still stoning or haven't really packed anything yet.

didn't really do much the last weekend except by just eating and meeting up with people that i haven't met up for a long time. it's a nice thing that we get to actually meetup. but usually it'll be just a meal session and afterall we'll just be stoning around doing nothing. haha but it's still good enough for me i guess :/

i feel so stressed when my mom is worried for me. >_>

saranghae

2010-05-26T11:00:00.001+08:00

hopefully the meetups this week will be successful and not give up halfway -_-

one week left of freedom! =(

the world may change my whole life through

2010-05-23T22:11:00.002+08:00

a nice version of old songs and it kept ringing in my mind for a few days now.

but, maybe all those mentioned in the song won't happen to me so soon. heh.

i'll be there for you if you should need me

2010-05-22T17:36:00.002+08:00

now i'd have to ponder the question again.

good environment with average pay
or bad environment with good pay?

everyone is money-minded. i am too, but i don't know which would be the better option. though this maybe too early to decide on this, but i think now i would prefer the first, but in the end i might go for the latter since money is the thing that keeps me living.

barely one week left and im too lazy to exercise still. x_x

calm surrender

2010-05-19T09:34:00.002+08:00

the graduation ceremony was yesterday and i finally got that piece of paper after studying for three years!

the final class gathering that we could ever have officially. the emotions between everyone and probably, the final time where we can have a meetup like this.

all i could say that was, coming to tp in such a course was kinda good. if only i didn't lose my interest, i could have probably done so much better. but nevertheless i'm satisfied with my results, even though it really isn't impressive.

oh well, no point regretting now. all i need to do now is to try to survive 4 months of bmt -_-.

hey hey hey goodbye