JORDAN.

went out for the first time with jinsheng and his gang for almost the whole day. somehow or another i enjoyed going out with them. i have no idea why.

this feeling wasn't really there when i went out with my bunkmates. even if i went out a few times with my bunkmates i couldnt really feel the excitement as compared to going out with js and the gang.

could it be the differences? although interaction with them wasn't alot as compared but i'd feel that i'll be so much happier and better with the specs as compared to my bunkmates.

could it be that there's too many people that i didn't really like? or maybe that i knew them for too long.

i don't know.

ord function last night was pretty cool. food wise i guess. programs for the function seems t obe the same everytime.

this ns journey is really coming to an end. in the past i was dreading for the ord date to be nearer. actually i wasn't really thinking about my ord date.

i just wanted to have fun.
you know. fun?
but i'm going to miss all this fun.

i wished my bank has a 5-digit amount. HAHAHAHA. see-ing mine that can reduce to the 2-digit amount can be really very very depressing. even though there's a set aside account. but i think i should have more. to think that last time i was so silly to think abt the working environment compared to the money. although that stand still stays now but i should have continued at another better place.

i guess a good working environment would be pretty available next time right? hmm. i still have driving lessons to take. probably have to pay off uni bills next time.

these few days i havent been thinking very positive. how?

have i been living in the life of too many suibians?


soemotional.



i suddenly feel that i'm so attached to a few certain people.

its like they bring me happiness or joy in what i do or smth. but when they are not around me it feels like a part of me is gone too.

best friends? true friends? hmm.

the new blogger template doesnt allow me to blog from my bb :(






back from tw! pretty fun experience as compared to the rest that i went. this time i went was really really lepak. though the r&r food wasnt really fanciful. its a countdown! someday



Combat shoot is over! Or at least the reshoot. Surprisingly it was so much easier as compared to the previous attempt two months ago. I learnt new things too on how to stand better etc. If I knew all of those earlier, I wouldn't be shooting again ._.

To think that I told myself I wanted to be follower in fear on my opinions backfired or cause unpleasant emotions to people. However as the times go by, somehow I can't really seem to do that.

And it feels like the above really happened. Hmm.



Read an article that says about 15things that can make you happy. One of the points was to stop living your life to other people's expectations.

But somehow if you don't live to someone's expectations, wouldn't you be able to judge yourself or estimate to see where you belong?



NMy last outfield so happened to be in tekong.

Not that it was very fascinating or whatsoever. However the moment I stepped on the island its those memories that immediately appeared into my mind.

Come to think of it, I really like those days in tekong. To me, I think that's where friendships start or maybe break. Haha. Still remember when the news of seperation broke out during my birthday and a powder party happened to me the day before. I realised though it was just a short period, the fun that was contained there seem to be so much more.

I sometime feel very regretful for not cherishing my friends as much as they have deserved. I have never really asked anyone out before. Not even just two of us to have a simple meal or chitchat or something. What could the reason be? Awkwardness? Or maybe there isn't really common topic I think. Maybe if I talked and interacted more with them I could have found out more things about them and of course they will know more about me. In that case my life wouldn't be so bottled up.

Though it still feeels bottled up inside me somehow, I hope I have to learn to give up some thoughts and venture out into something new even though it might affect me greatly or not.

Two weeks more to taiwan!



For once in my whole life I never felt so important. Or at least my presence that is. Hahahhaa.

Sis' wedding happened yesterday and it was a pretty nice event. Weddings usually are somehow the same but it signifies something to the brides at least.

Now that she's married, hopefully she'll be able to change her character and not do mistakes she did the last time.

I don't know whether if I did the right thing to hide all the mistakes she did from my mum. But what done cannot be undone and I hoped I did what I could.

At least she's a happier person now. I will miss her somehow. It feels very different now without her presence at home anymore.

I'm getting so emotional now.

swear like a sailor